The night of December 14th Paul and I went to our favorite dinner for our last date as a single couple. We talked about this new chapter we were about to embark on and reminisced about the past five years, all the trials we have overcome and all the fun things we got to do.
I was a week past my due date and I felt like I would be pregnant forever. We made it to the hospital around 7 pm after our delicious dinner and I wasn’t dilated at all, no contractions and 0% effaced. We checked in and met our nurse, I will never forget how amazing she was with us ( Kimmy at American fork hospital if you can request her DO IT!!) . She inserted the first Cytotec around 7:30 pm. She checked me again at midnight and I was 80% effaced and dilated to a 2+ so she decided to start me. They did the Pitocin and epidural around 12:30, I remember feeling so many feelings but mostly really anxious. This was it, this was the moment I had dreamed of for so long, the moment of meeting my baby was only hours away and I was so nervous. Around 4:00 am she checked me again and I was a 6+ and dilating fast, right after she checked me my water broke and she told me we would start pushing within the hour.
We called my friend Beth with fielding Films and she was a saint to rush to the hospital at 4 am ( I felt so bad ). I started feeling a ton of pressure but I wouldn’t let Kimmy check me again till Beth was there (I was determined to have this moment captured) Beth arrived right as I was starting to push, I pushed for about 25 minutes. It was amazing to have Paul, my mom and mother in law all there supporting me through the delivery, they were so supportive and cheering me on the whole time. My doctor finally arrived and one push later Poppy was here.
They put her right on my chest and I couldn’t control myself, I was an emotional wreck! She was so perfect and seeing her for the first time was so surreal! She was instantly calm and I knew she knew who I was. I was so emotional the whole time just staring into her beautiful eyes. It was truly a magical experience! I have never felt so close to heaven then I did in that moment, I got to hold her on my chest for a good hour and the bond we shared was indescribable my little human was in my arms. I prayed for her for five years, I prayed that she would come when the time was right and I prayed that she would feel comfort as she entered into this world and left her great grandmas behind. I knew she was being prepared for this time and this moment. It couldn’t have gone more perfect and she couldn’t have been more perfect.
Becoming a mom has been the most powerful experience for me. I have never felt stronger and more empowered as a woman then I did creating life and becoming a mother. To me, this is what life is all about. I look back and I am extremely grateful for what we want through to get her here. It made our marriage stronger and our love for her so precious. She has brought a light and love into our lives that I could never have imagined. Her presence is the sweetest most delicious gift and waking up to her sweet face every day is the highlight of my life.